i dont know what the hell is happening to me
seriously………
i think i need to see a psychologist. i need one.
i feel like…. i need to go away from this place. but not for a while. forever.
i feel like running away….. but you just cant run away from your own minds, feelings.
i just cant seem to forget.
i cant wait to get out from here.
for the past 2 days, i am not in the mood.
i am not blaming anyone, it’s just that…….. my feelings, they’re not right.
i feel like i am dying. i am not sure why. it feels like, today is my last day in this world. and hoping that, today is. but, i dont want this to end.
not sure why. but i really do love my family at this moment. they’ll do anything for me, everything i want. i have the best family ever. and i want it to stay this way.
and my friends are the best. my best friends, my classmates, everyone. even them, the people i hate, i still love you. remember that. thanks for making me a better person. even though i am still crappy, shitty and things. i still feel that all of you changed me. but not into a bad person. maybe the bad part was just me all along.
what i want to do right now: listen to my ipod and do nothing.
